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... [20 Jan 2008|09:08pm]

i got into griffith. i move down to the goldcoast on the 30th of january

just as im leaving. i meet the most amazing person

i wanna cut something

cmnt

[06 Jan 2008|12:19am]

wooooo. second night drinking by myself... its awesome. im so bored... i love getting drunk and listening to katatonia... its my new favourite past time

keep you quiet again, i cannot tollerate your noise

i find out if i get into griffith next thursday... if i do im not 100% sure ill take it... id like to but i dont know if im ready... but then i really do need a change of scenery

maybe yes... maybe no... im not prepared to stay here...

cmnt

[01 Jan 2008|10:06pm]

im your best fucking friend when you have a problem but when its my turn to talk i guess im just not worth the effort.

satisfied?not bloody likely

cmnt

[31 Dec 2007|08:04pm]

christmas was aiiight derrr

woke up at 12, exchanged gifts, had lunch, got drunk, passed out at 430.... it was good.

going into town for new years... not sure if i wanna drink. i probably should. ill see whats happening

katie, if you read this. i hope you had a good xmas and new years.

cmnt

cunt [24 Dec 2007|01:27am]

mmmmm christmas
a chance for the family to act fake
a chance to act like everythings fuking perfect
the same old cliche'
we wake up, recive our gifts, sit around till lunch is served, sleep, then spend the afternoon endulging in whatver crap weve bought for each other... jsut to make eachother feel special before we forget how little thought has gone into it and they never touch the fucking thing again till next christmas.

hopefully ill get drunk and pass out before midday so i dont have to put up with the rest

i think ill just sit in my room and listen to nevermore all day

nothing to celebrate jesus' birthday like passing out listening to nevermore

this time of the year always brings back bad memories... maybe doing new years with my brother will be something to look forward to... that is if he stays. every time he comes up it feels like he's only here for a few days and then he's gone... i cant wait to see the embarressed look on danni's face when she see's him again. i made it my duty to rub in the fact she was hitting on him on my 18th last night.

danni... heh, yay... coolest chick ever, always happy, always makes me laugh, always offers me a smoke. its a shame shes as old as my brother. somehow i dont think either of us would be able to look past the age difference. which is unfortunate cause that would generally go for most of the people she hangs out with, who are more my type. im over highschool drama queens. unsure what they want, telling you they like you one minute, then dating someone else the next. fuck insecuritys.

im really torn at the moment

ive just joined a new band
but for the past year ive been working my ass off trying to get into griffith university. and if i get in... im going to have to leave them, which means everything ive put in so far, theyre going to have to replace... i mean im easily replacable but i feel bad about that cause of the fact that they wanna start gigging in march. im scared that i might actually get into griffith this time round... and im gunna have to leave behind uni... the townsville friends... what few of them there are anyway. the respect ive gained...

this may have to be the harded decision ill ever have to make.
and i dont know what i have to gain from either perspective.

i might just lose my mind

cmnt

gone [17 Dec 2007|02:17pm]

A dead start in my head
And the day's been laid
The things i really want
Always torn from my heart
You never saw the way
How i wanted you to stay
And now you're gone
I'm on my own

When i was thinking this
Was something permanent
You were already thinking
Of going away

cmnt

[17 Dec 2007|12:58pm]

did you ever see that one person
and the way they do these things
and it hurts you so much
its like choking down ambers

its something ill never get over. something ill never admit to.
reflecting on past memories.
im inlove with someone that no longer exists.
people change. and often for the worst

ive basically sat in my room listening to katatonia and thinking about ehr for the last 3 days... no amount of duct tape can fix this

cmnt

guess im back... heh... [12 Dec 2007|11:27pm]

[ music | the ghost in you ]

hey hey hey, its that time again.
you get to read my bitching about shiiiiitttttt, and i get to wonder who the fuck actually reads theseeee... i decided to start up my live journal again... just so i have omewhere to write useless shit noone will ever read. sometimes you need to write shit down, not care if anyone actually reads it... people always read my myspace blogs so i tend to avoid writing personal things on myspace.

immmm pretty sure im bored shitless... ive been working on this drawing, but its a pain in the ass getting the right perspective on what im working on.

ive come to realise townsville has no girls who like the same music i do, none that dont suck anyway. parkway drive are coming here in march though so that should birng some of them out of hiding.
i personally hate parkway so im only going to meet people i guess.

uni is really fucked up atm, i cant find my qtac registration number so i cant check if i got an offer from griffith... but i guess ill find out eventually. i dont know if i want to stay at jcu, i have good friends there, by good i mean, clare and mikael... who distracted me and caused me to skip painting so i failed. and the usual slums of whom i spend my days with. but i think i need the change of scenery... i really want to move to the goldcoast, start anew. the goldcoast seems more like my kind of place, ironic its known for immense amounts of sunshine and im a redhead, but the people there seem more... my type. im tired of living in obscurity.... which will make my next paragraph contradict that statement

ive decided to get dreadlocks. and a septum peirrcing. i asked my parents and they decided that i could if i get a job, which im trying to do. ive been handing out resume's and such but nothing as of yet. but the septum peircing, im going to have to hide. my dad will fuck me up if i get it, he says peircings are irresponsible. funny thing is, he trys to teach me about resonsibilty by getting drunk and making me pick up my mother while im in town (i was deso). i think ill just get a bar put through my nose. wait till it heals, and then change to a ring when i go out.

last but not least, i spent a whole week playing zelda, the new one. it was so worth it... but now i cant sleep properly

cmnt

[10 Mar 2007|10:47am]

your skin
always looked better filled with lead
to see your skin seperate
like deaths curtains open
infiltrate with darkness
watching your life fade from "innocence"
watching your life frade from lies
love isnt real till youve seen it die
love isnt real till its been blasted through your skull
darkness, answer for this pain i feel
sweat seeps into my eyes
blood seeps into yours
you never looked more beautiful
your emtpy eyes stare
your smile gone
they always say
the greatest love
is a murderers first

cmnt

[22 Oct 2006|02:39am]

i went to gigantour last, it wa fucking sweet, arch enemy were great, soulfly were better and megadeth were about a good as arch enemy only they were megadeth, ill go into detail later, now i have to go do some shit

cmnt